Cassie Leszek

i figured it maybe about time to update you. these past few weekes have been eventful, none-the-less. erik, chris, erica and i went up to boston last weekend and got a bit lost but all in all it was really fun. can't wait for salem on the 29th... witch expo bitches!! but we are planning my birthday in new york city with the four of us... i am really excited about that!! school and work has been taking a lot of time. like working 27 flippin' hours a week and doing at least one delage paper and having at least one lafrance test a week. but i am going to go because while i am sitting in my computer applications class i have homework i SHOULD be doing.
MAYBE it won't take me a month to post another one... but i don't know

OK now it is time to type fast because I don't have all day!!
I have been uberly busy with trying to work 47 hours a week, have a boyfriend and still do LaFrance and Delages' projects... Just because they don't have lives during the summer why make us miserable??
WHATEVER!! Nothing has really changed since I last wrote, except for the fact that I am dating that guy who I had written about. But most of you could have guessed I would have gotten him...
I am really un-excited about going back to school but we don't have very much longer to be in the good ole' Tourtellotte Memorial High. My classes should be interesting...
AS FOLLOWED:
A-- Advanced Math with Seney
B-- Band with Belik
C-- Computer Application with Tupaj
D-- American Studies with Delage
E-- Marketing I with Tupaj
F-- Early American Studies with LaFrance
G-- Honors Chemistry with Bruce
Should be a well... interesting year!!
ALSO flippin' prom this year... which means prom committee!!

ME AND MY MAMMA

SEXY ME!!

ROB AND CORY AT WORK

AHHHH! MAMMA AND ME AGAIN.

CORY AGAIN AT WORK

CHRIS... geeky and adorable!

That's right people... it is already that month! How amazing is that?? I FINALLY get my permit tomorrow if I pass the little test! It is about damn time-- I had to work tonight without Aaron which was great but he did come to visit and brought with him and iced coffee for me. He loves me but we already knew that. I have to work on Tuesday too but I get all day Wednesday off and I am going out with Chris... he is the sweetest thing I have ever met and he is really easy to talk too!! Plus he likes me and coffee which score him major point. I bought another new digital camera and this one fits in my fist!! ADORIBLE so I am putting in a few picture that it took...

Let me start at the beginning of my interesting story of last night!! I was lting on my bed comtemplating on waiting for Gabriel's call or going to bed and my cell phone rings at like 1:00ish. So I answer it as normal and it turns out to be Josh and Ron who need someone to get drunk with... So I am like sure what the hell why not?? They have a large bottle of cheap vodka. Now-- no matter how much I have ever drunk I have never been able not to walk and I have never threw up!! SO MUCH FOR THAT IDEA. Considering my boys were already trashed when they got to my house I thought I had to catch up and boy I sure did. But whenever I am not in the "right start of mind" and Ron is around (or any of Josh's friends for that matter....) I end up maing out with them!! I know Cassie what a slut but deal bitches... so after being completely buzzed I went in my house, stumbled to my bed and passed out!! Don't remember anything eles at all BUT I ended up puking all over my and had the worst hangover EVER today! I couldn't even eat all day. So that is my interesting story of why I won't be drinking for a while now.

1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? eyes and smile a must on people i look at
2. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? depends on what she stood for
3. Would you marry for money? nope i want to marry for love-- if and when i get married
4. Have you had braces? nope =0)
5. Do you wear lipgloss? yes and according to kari TOO MUCH
6. Do you like talking on the phone? depend on who the person is
7. When was the last time you had a hickey? at the present time...
8. Could you live without a computer? not for long i don't think
9. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..? aim
10. If so, how many people are on your list(s)? about 90
11. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be? the 1930's because i loved there clothing
12. Do you drink enough water? yes about 10 glasses a day
13. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off? take them off
14. What is your favorite fruit? any "berry"
15. Do you eat wheat bread or white? neither but is that an answer??
16. What is your favorite place to visit? spain and california
17. What is the last movie you saw? ladder 49 (again)
18. Do you kiss on the first date? yes
19. Are you photogenic? for those of you who know me-- you def. know the answer
20. Do you dream in color or black and white? black and white i think
21. Are you wearing fingernail polish? on my toes
22. Is it chipped or fresh? chipped
23. Do you have any dimples? yes they are "cute" but i think they are annoying
24. Do you remember being born? nope
25. Why do you take surveys? no idea bc i have nothing better to do maybe
26. Do you drink alcohol? sometimes
27. Did you like or do you like high school? for the most part
28. What is the most beautiful language? spanish
29. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake? yes i found it romantic!
30. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? sunsets
31. Do you want to live to be 100? nope bc my boobs will be draggin on the floor and i don't want that
32. Do you think women should be expected to shave their bodyhair? yes
33. Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? salty or sugary-free
34. Is a flat stomach important to you? no
35. Do you or have you played with a ouija board? yes
36. Are you loyal? yes
37. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? yes but i tell them mine
38. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off...? off
39. Do you believe in magic? nope but i use to
40. Do you have nightmares frequently? no
41. Do you like your nose? since i got it peirced yes
42. Do you like abstract art? yes
43. Do you think you can draw well? not than bad!!
44. Do you listen to music daily? yes and i could not live with out it
45. Do you like to watch cartoons? sometimes
46. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real? he's not?? *runs away and cries*
47. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? around 45 or more
48. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety? variety but depends on where i am
49. Do you write poetry? yes but not romantically
50. Do you snore? nope
51. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides? all of the above
52. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler? poodle
53. Do you lick stamps? no
54. Do you use an electric can opener? no
55. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon? not that i remember
56. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emotional pain def.
57. Do you think balding men should shave their heads? whatever.... i don't care
58. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed? yes
59. Do you prefer a piano or a violin? piano
60. Are you a sex addict? i perfer not to answer this question
61. Do you know someone who has cancer? yes
63. Do you hunt? i don't but i know that my father and his friends do upsate NY
64. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants? expensive resturants... high maintmence??
65. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? both but depends on what i feel like that day
66. Do you have a middle name? yup JO
67. Are you basically a happy person? for the most part yes
68. Are you tired? not yet...
69. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today? yes a large frech vanilla iced coffee with cream and no sugar!!!
70. Have you ever met anyone off the internet? yes my last bf and present love interest!!
71. How many phones do you have in your house? A LOT including cells
72. How long is your hair? 6 inches past shoulder length
73. Do you get along with your parents? something
74. What color of eyes do you prefer? green and hazel ( GO ME )
75. Are you a virgin? i am not going to lie to a survey-- NOPE.

yes i am finally updating this thing after neglecting you again for about two weeks!!
i just got home from my vacation up in new york on like sunday night and guess what i had to do today and yesterday?? WORK AT SUBWAY!! yupiee-- lesson on life-- never tell your boss that you'll "make up your hours when you get back from vacation" because you will soon learn that you'll be standing and making sandwitchs for about 6.5 hours stright... let me tell you how much me feet flippin' kill! BUT i am getting way ahead of myself so i am going to back up and tell you about my vacation up in NY before i start rambling!
i left on my mother's birthday from here to go upstate NY (in the middle of nowhere may i add) i got her a few things like a coldplay live cd from 2003, a dvd and a few candles BUT anywho we went to NY and nothing really happened but on the forth of july there was a lot of interesting activity!! like a few fight and now people hate each other and a three-some with a lesbian and a new mother and her husband-- for instance. none of these had anything to do with me actually-- as i was just an "innocent" bystander. actually i was busy getting a 15 year old girl from paris france, named nina drunk!! it was fun and her english really really really improved with tequella. but oh well... i could not stand being in the wilderness so i decided to take a trip to NYC and naturally went shopping!! even thought i really shouldn't have. bc i still need a car but i also went to see the pants movie bc eventually it will be out on video!! it was good and i wanted to cry but bc i had my make up done that morning i did...
than i went back up there for like four days and hung out and really did nothing except tanning and shopping again in woodstock. than came home.
when i got home my damn cell phone went off as soon as i pulled in the driveway. it was whitney!! i think she has a camera on my house-- although she has never been here and never will be. but OMG it was really flipped up!! hehe but i had to work monday for 5.5 hours and than kari came to subway after she got out of D&D at night. she brought with her, her pillow BUT no small french vanilla iced coffee with cream and no sugar!!! AHHHHH. she met corey and approved i thing bc she said he was cute and i know. LOL and rob who is new and really really "ODD"... he used the words "my girlfriend" 39 times so me and corey concluded that he has no girlfriend...kari kinda got mad bc he told her he was a mathematics major but his college courses had nothing to do w/ #s. ( WHO CARES?? HE IS FUCKED UP!!) hehe but we hung there and my mom was kinnda late! i asked corey if he would come over and watch THE OC with us but he said no... BUT it would be really fun! OMG-- i still want this kid really badly and now that he is single-- I HAVE A NEW GOAL!! (kari you know what it is and it will happen on friday or saturday) LOL.
but we got to my house and went through like all the damn OC tapes bc kari lied to me and told me i was on disc four but really i was on the middle of six!! so we watched a few and kari ate carbs- EW. ( TAKEN FROM KARI BC I AM LAZY: 5 of em. then we went to sleep. around 330. her dad was getting up for work. then we woke up and watched the other 2 ocs.we were done FINALLY! people came to start working on the pool. "i wonder if i could flash them and get money taken off?" but then it was like 1 guy and he was like 35. not worth it. then...ate lunch, blah blah. and cassie got called into work @ 3 so they dropped me off. ) OK yes that sums it up except for the part where i have little don't get pregent confetti on my mirror!! LOL good times and letters in spanish.
BUT than i went to work again and had to work with aaron for 3.5 hours out of the 6.5 hours i worked!! INSANE. but i have good news. tomorrow i am asking my fater for a loan of 1000 bc corey is selling his car and said he'd give me a good price bc he "like me" so i figured that would pay for driver's ed and a car with the addition of money i have saved up! but i'll let you know what happenes.
GOOD LUCK TO KARI & ALI & JEN ON THERE DRIVER'S TEST!!

yupiee and i just read all of my friends updated blogs-- how fun!?!
first things first... i am so gonna win kari and jen because i have 72 what now?? LOL yeah i type slower than you and don't put lyrics in mine. there are my excuses.
all i have really done so far was work and work and well work. let me tell you again how much i love working with aaron! I HATE IT. opps what happenes if he reads this. OH WELL
anywho a lot of tanning has been going on. i went to a concert in oxford high school and dragged erica than coming to the epiphany of it was outside... 97 degrees and humid. YUCK. danny lent me his sunscreen and some water ballones- the joy of hanging out with local bands. HEHE and than eric didn't show up and the show was running late so i had to leave without seeing frncine or fighting words. oh well i was going to go to jamies house to see them but i didn't feel like it after four hours at subway!
you all know that song lonely? well that is now my new theme song... how confusing right!? ugh yes kinnda. i haven't had a "relationship" since that stupid day some like to call valentines day! ugh but he did call me like two nights ago and YELL at me for not calling him when i said i would the night after... "IT HAS BEEN THREE WEEKS AND TWO DAYS." did he count?? i think so. but it sucks having all guy friends and being single... i was talking to kayoum about it and he thinks we should elope and run away!! sounds like something i would do.
oh yeah and than a trip to milbury to spend money and stand in the target music department and watching vidoes and scream "I KNOW THAT BAND AND SO DO YOU CASSIE..." thank you for desturbing the peace josh! good time and mr. and mrs. smith. good movie
but next week should be the same as this one... shopping, working, concerts, going out, tanning, ect. BUT on july 1st i am going to new york for 10 days. boss is really happy about that one. AGAIN OPPS.
call the cell or come and visit me at subway-- when i know when i am working i'll post it up!

Let’s start with the basics… SUMMER IS FINALLY HERE!! Yupiee and I went out today and bought hair color to celebrate--we’ll figure out if blonds have more fun. Subway has been good and busy-- working with Aaron is well OH BOY A SHIT LOAD OF FUN. Yeah right. But his friends Cory there is really hott and he works a lot of the same shifts as me-- maybe something will happens but that is “only wishful thinking’. Which I have been doing way to much of lately and have got to stop-- will write more tomorrow. And wanted to let those of you who are interested know I am going to the OHS concert on Saturday to see Francine… <3 but have to leave right after & change in the car (the things I do for Eric…)

graduation tonight which means two more years!! YUPIEE... are we counting down the days yet?? alaina might come tonight which would be really fun bc she is back and hopefully will go to the concert w/ me this weekend!! i have to take more pictures-- i realized that my myspace pics are really boring...damn me, JEN GET READY TO TAKE OFF YOUR CLOTHES?? lmao... that sounds really bad unless you know me!! but cesta la' vie. talk to you all later... will take pictures tonight.<3 <3 <3 passed my delage test so so so HAPPY!! (aaron suposable got an 84-- *sniffs* do i smell bullshit?? YUP.

well if you read the subject and go to school with me than you'll most likely know what i am talking about~ so decided to run for band treasurer because I wanted to do a band office bc I hadn't done anything since 8th grade and had a lot of good fundrasing ideas for your trip to Montreal next year!! turns out i was un-opposed for about a week and than once good ole' beielik announces it... nikki signs up to run (not showing any intrest before for the past weeek of me talking about it). well elections were today and considering you read the title I LOST!! it does kind of suck because I really wanted to do it and had mucho bien ideas... BUT NO!! grrr-- to piss me off more I only lost by one vote and gabrielle wasn't there so I actually could have tied. but oh well- say hello to next year's band presidency. I CLAIM IT NOW-- and am going to start campaigning!?! to add to this I ran for our wonderful student council which turned out to be a major popularity contest... let me tell you!?! amanda coty, jocelyn davern, ben favrue, and erica parks. NONE OF WHICH WERE ON STUDENT COUNCIL LAST YEAR OR EVEN RAN. despite all of this they only won because they all used the p-word... PROM. do you know that student council has nothing to do with prom?!? so yeah... even mr. joyce said that but does our dumb ass class listen to a fucking word anyone says. NOPE. if you want to be involved in prom... join PROM COMITTIEE... make sense not student council-- so alot of things should get done this year! (sarcasim here) and nikki I GUESS I STILL LOVE YOU... (I told you that you would win) BUT there is still FBLA and Diversity and Prom Comittiee so I'll have something to do!! start working at subway tomorrow so you should all come and see me... YUM BREAD!!

last night was at first really confusing... me and erik couldn't decide what or where we wanted to go-- so after pissing my mother off about changing my plan 15 times , we decided to go pick up our friend erica and go to play mini-golf. first we had an adventure because me and erik wanted to go to the funfest!?! we went in and scoped out all of the guys...played in the thrift store with a rainbow umbrella...found AMANDA... and than saw my mom... we were watching my brother on the swing when erik found the hottest guy working at a ball in the bucket game!! we i decided to walk over and start talking to him because he is good looking (typical cassie move) he told me how much it was and i told him that there would be no way to win any of these prizes... he proceeded to take my arm--in the process hit my boob -- and throw the ball into the bucket... this as you can only imagine made erik mouth open really wide. so he took the same approach!! and it worked... after wasting more than $10 to try and get a really ugly flamingo, we got it!!!!! AFTER me asking if he was stright and getting looed up and down... than went of skipping with it!! BUT we realized that we had a dilema, they flamingo didn't have a name. so i being the ditsy one had to go and ask him his name so we could name it after him. he said "My name is Sunny D. like the vitamin I am good for you..." erik said later in the car that he wanted to later swallow him but no such luck! thaat ended that experience and we went to the mini-golf area only to realize that it closed at 8 o'clock.... that meant off to webster to play pool-- but not before driving around and singing "i want to have sex on the beach" really loud on the side streets and yelling out the windows at hott guys that drive by!! BUT OH WELL- during the drive to webster we decided that this summer sunny the flamingo is going everywhere with us and we are going to doucment all of sunny's firsts: trip to the beach, orgy, homosexual expericence, arrest, trip to wal*mart, ect. it should be an intereting summer. but anyway so we played pool (which i so totally won after laying across the pool table to hit the ball) and than spend rediculas amount of money on stupid tokens which bought us stupis stuff!! always good fun. me erik and erica were all hungrey so we wanted to go next dorr to lic's and eat-- erik called to see what time they were open till and the guy said if you come over right now-- we can eat. so we did and this really bitchy woman approached us and bitch at us (LOL) and we walked out and said we didn't appreaciate her rude service. so hello friendly's. we ate but i took forever, after she said she had no citrus for my webster water... hehe but we ate and megan came in (really stoned and ate like all my french fries in like 10 seconds) dumb pot!! than we went home. OH YEAH one more thing i got married last night with rainbow braided rings to erik -- my gay wife. LOL god fun night and can't wait till i am out of school. IF ANYONE WANTS TO HANG OUT LEAVE ME A MESSAGE...we can take or leave sunny home.

WELL another day of school over and i don't know why i even bother to post on here because no one ever bother's to read or leave me comments on here-- i will survive. student council first thing in the morning with the 4 people that decided to show up-- i am so going to kill people who don't show up next year bc it pisses me off that now we have no plans for an end of the year activity... but whatever-- than full day of typical school (gym sucked...tennis outside+track pants retain heat and sweat EW!!) but that diversity club last meeting till next year... kinnda sad but oh well-- it remind you that the year is almost over. and than driving amanda home and her really hott hair "eating her face" DUMB 85 ON DEALGE PAPER.... grr pissed me off because i worked my ass off on that damn thing!! ask flippin' anyone ("no i can't do that, i have a delage paper to do" "no i can't go drink, i have a delage paper to do") and i than i get an 85................OH MY GOD--never satisfied... but whatever. that went to libary!! found a good political lesbian novel that i am reading now and than cops at the school... "your goona get raped or stolen, get into my car" i say "why so you can rape or steal me??" it was interesting... now i am home and have to shave my legs-- gym long period, i think it is the last one. WOO-HOO. but ttyl. leave me some love so i know people read this shit.

so friday or yesterday went to six flags for our band trip and competition-- as delage called it "play time"... i really beg to differ because we did play at a compettition which we got platnum (100 from one judge who likes slavic farwell because he was from russia and a 97 from the other one who was the band director at the college that we went to.) they bot said we were really good-- and since we were playing in a room/gym that a such an echo it made the compettition a real challenage.but standing outside was also fun--AARON OWNING MY UNDERWEAR FOR EXAMPLE--GOD HELP US ALL!! fun fun fun!the bus ride there was really fun except for the fact that i almost peed my pants... and brian and ian were def. not helping the fact that i have a large moccha capacino. but after we played forband than off to six flags. me and gabrielle started off with jen, kari, nikki and brittany! but we got seperated and went to find other people and ended up walking around with everyone from our band-- and damn i mean everyone. me and gabrielle went on everthing that went in a circular motion and i still hate rollar coasters. YUCK but i had fun. the bus ride home was really fun too!! kyle and me were listening to each other's music. i love his jazz and blues-- it was really good actually and even the spanish guitar. but than i went home and my mom had her friends over-- I ATE SO MANY CARBS YESTERDAY!
so as for today i am going to the concert that i posted about a few days ago... MTAM isn't playing anymore but i still have to go because i have never seen francine and kayoum said that it he didn't see me it would be ther END of me and i don't want that to happen. so i have to be there at 6:30 SHARP. hello black eyeliner-jeans-and a classic black tank top. but it should be really fun and i am kinnda excited that i get to see my friends perform and do something that they love... i want to start a band... i really do miss playing my bass and i have to start again. but ce'sta la vie. hehe i love that saying and i think i am using it way to much but going to go now.

i need a concert buddy on a really short notice... AMERICAN LEGION ON JUNE 4TH AT 6PM for only $7... there are some really good local bands... Francine, More Than A Memory, Fighting Words, Morris, Therefore I Am, Four Years Strong. someone please love me??

now it is time to bitch about my life. first of all i still haven't talked to my wonderful father-- well there is a big surprise... all because of that band concert and how i asked him if would go because i thought he would maybe want to see one of them... since he hasn't seen seen one of them since like 6th grade. not asking to much but whatever! also i have been looking for someone who can relate to me--not a serious boyfriend or girlfriends but someone who i can talk to and listen to! god damn that makes me sound really mushy but whatever. my ex called me last night after i talked to another one of my ex's yesterday for the first time since we broke up. it really sucks because i am trying to forget about my ex who joined the navy because in reality there is no way i can have him for at least five years (i'll be 21 and i am NOT waiting that long) but as i am trying to forget about him what does he do... call and tell me how much he misses me and can't wait to see me on july 21st--he is actually counting down the days. but whatever--this week better fly by because tomorrow is already wednesday and kari and gabrielle are going to the movies with me on thursday, gabrielle is than sleeping over...after all of this we have a band competition on friday where i hope to get a tan at 6-flags after. but i am going to stop typing bc i have to write a delage conclusion... DUN DUN DUN this could really suck.
congradulation to me because i wrote in here two days in a row, probably won't happen again

Sexuality and Relationships
Are you straight, gay, or bisexual?: bisexual
How many people have you kissed in your life?: enough I think
Have you ever made out with a member of the same sex?: yup
How many sexual partners have you had?: more than one
How many people have you dated this past year?: about 4
Where are your favorite places to be kissed?: neck, ears, face…
Do you kiss on the first date?: yup I guess I am easy
Would you ever pay someone for sex?: no need to
Would you ever let someone pay you for sex?: nope
Do you keep your eyes open when you kiss?: no but I will occasionally peak at the other person
Do you think you've met the person you'll spend the rest of your life with?: sometimes but than I think again and know he already hurt me once
Have you ever regretted a hook-up?: I don’t regret anything
Would you date or marry someone if your parents or friends didn't accept them?: yup more likely
Would you kiss someone if you didn't love them?: yes and I have
Are you always horny?: I prefer not to answer…
Do you prefer to chase or be chased?: either
What is your kissing pet peeve?: when they glob spit into your mouth EW
How many people have you said "I love you" to and meant it?: my friends and one guy to his face--soon to be dumped by him
Have you ever given anyone a bath?: no
Have you ever had a hard time getting over someone?: yes once and only once
What do you notice first about guys or girls?: eyes, personality, hair
Are you friends with your ex?: yes to some, and to others we try but I makes it harder
Have you ever cheated on someone?: never would I cheat
Have you ever been cheated on?: YES
What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?: actually I have yet to be swept off my feet…
What do you look for in your ideal mate?: good personality and complete trust
Biggest Turn-ons: personality, trustful, sense of humor
Turn-offs: cockyness, jerks
Do you get jealous of your boyfriends/girlfriends other exes: only once…

Morals/Beliefs
What religion are you?: none at all
Do you got to church regularly?: no
Do you believe in God?: sometimes
Satan?: yes
Angels?: nope
Heaven?: no but after life yes.
Are you a virgin?: no
What do you think of abortion?: go for it, it is a personal choice that the government should have no say in what so ever.
Suicide?: yea
Flag burning?: no
War?: no
Pop music?: no

Currently
What are you wearing?: PJ pants and a top
Who are you talking to?: no one and occasionally myself
How is the weather?: cloudy and cool
What are you listening to?: nothing
What/Who are you thinking about?: someone who is special *wink*
What are you eating/drinking?: water and just had dinner
What are you looking forward to?: six flags and the pants movie
What are you dreading?: delage and her research paper
How are you feeling?: content
How is your hair?: dry in a ball on top of my head
What time is it?: 8:05 pm
What are you annoyed by?: men, women, life, school, and my non-tan

When Was The Last Time You...
Burped?: today
Kissed?: not for a while
Had sex?: even longer than been kissed
Went to the movies?: a few days ago-- and on Thursday again.
Went out to eat?: last night
Cried?: last night-- so EMO
Got dumped?: Valentine’s Day 05’
Dumped someone?: no idea…
Threw up?: about a week ago…
Peed?: 10 minutes ago
Went skiing/snowboarding?: last season I tried
Went for a walk?: today
Ate ice cream?: last night
Got into a fight?: all of the time LOL

Are You
insecure?: sometimes
interesting?: yep
random?: yep really
hungry?: not now
moody?: sometimes… ok yup
hardworking?: yes
organized?: yes
healthy?: I try…anti-carbs
attractive?: I have been told and yes I think I am…
responsible?: for the most part
obsessed?: with some people…
angry?: not now
sad?: partly
happy?: the majority of times yes
hyper?: all of the time
talkative?: yes but I do get quiet sometimes

Who do you want to
Kill?: certain people who make my life living hell.
Kiss?: I shall keep this to myself and a few others
Slap?: again to myself
Look like?: no one I like me

Random Questions
Coke or Pepsi?: pepsi
What do you collect?: ducks
Number of cds you own?: too many
Number of scars on my body?: a lot-- thank you dance and falling down

ME: so to update this thing because i haven't done it in quite sometime... I HAVE BEEN BUSY!! dating around trying to find that perfect person who i know is somewhere out there...maybe far away but somewhere-- across all of this i stumble (yes stumble) on a old friend who hurt me... i think that it is better if i don't use names, if the person wants to confess so be it but i am not responcible for hate mail. but he hurt me because i was basically used for a month and than left to deal because he went back to his ex who treated him like shit and cheated on him... guess some men like that??!! but anywho he starts talking to me again and immeditly i fall right back into love(yes i said love and don't ask me why) with him... is that wrong and am i going to end up getting hurt again? will some of you guys please give me adivce... COULD HE HAVE GOTTEN BETTER!

STEPH:cass cass cass..... i was the SAME way with breaking up with ben... i missed what he gave SO MUCH that i NEEDED it back to live.... just give it some time..... really.. just date around... hell... even we can go out on a date... sean wont mind... lol just try and get ur mind off this kid.... you DONT want to get hurt again... and i dont want you to get hurt again.. i love ya waaay too much.... =D

ME:but steph you don't know we talked for a long time and he sound sincere

STEPH:yeah... so did ben every time i threatened a break up... now he's calling me a bitch a parasite and an asswipe.... oh he was so sincere.

ME:i feel as though this is different because you and ben were dating for a while. this kid, we will call him SMILE, broke up with his girlfriend. than he took me to a dance and we connected so well. after that he decided to go back to his ex girlfriend and leave me no contact except and occasional hello. after all of his he was scared to talk to me when my profile had said in a relationship because he didn't want to ruin things for me... now he applogized and said he knew he was an ass hole but he really wants to see me. NOT DATE (like i wish i could) but see. i see no harm even though i know i will get hurt again because it seems as if i always do no matter how different the guy or girl seems. stephy i think i should just give up--but you know me and know that i won't, so for the time being what should i do? god this comment is really long.

STEPH:hmmmmmm... just be friends...... if it hurts you the first time you see him, END ALL TIES. that's my best advice cass... just let things happen... if they're good, go with it... if it's bad... run. run far far away... =D

ME:can friends eventually date?? ;oP

STEPH:yup! look at ben and his best friend heather.... lol they're goin out.... so yeah... it'll work out if it's meant to be cassie... =D i love you.

ME:is he really?? that scumbag--OMG you should call me now so i don't have to type!! but i really do love this guy and i hate the word love.

STEPH: i cant talk on the phone... buuut... yeah... i know... i've put it past me.. lol i'm ok... but yeah.. i unno.. just let it go.... whatever happens should happen. =D

ME:i still don't know what to do because it feels as though i am lining myself up to get hurt once more...

DO ANY OF YOU HAVE ANY ADVICE THAT YOU"D LIKE TO SHARE?? PLEASE HELP...

well to say the least i am in mr dery's class and finally updating this flipping thing because i just realized that i only have written 60 entries and jen has over 260. wow don't we feel achieved! but got the wonderful chapter test back and got a 91-- only reason why i got it was because dery didn't teach us that chapter!! but kari is teaching herself the next lession (OVERACHIEVER, i can't even spell it)and jen an me re doind "academic" work!! OPPS. but still is the job looking process-- actually recieved a call from the dollar tree and they need someone for flexable hours and i really want a set job!! and like $200 a week... wishful thinking and aaron wants me to call subway because he said i can easily get a job there as a sandwitch artist-- so i am going to do that today!! BUT to update you on what has happened for the past 10 days-- i haven't spoken to my father because he is an ass hole-- to explain in really short times i had asked him if felt like going to my band concert because he hasn't been to one in like 4, almost 5 years and he like spazzed out because he though that i was telling him to go (demanding to use the word that he did) so i got called a piece of shit and i called him an ass hole-- JUSTIFIED RIGHT? so now i haven't talked to him and i missed signing up for drivers ed and still don't have my permit-- migh as well wait until i fucking 18.

OK... well i figured i'd update this thing becuase i have neglected you for quite some time now-- this week i am finally going to get my permit (now that i am almost 17 but wtf i don't really care) that is if i pass that dumb little test. i really don't where to go for it or how much it costs so i kinnda need help. i applied absolutly everywhere this weekend and i need a job!! i tried to get one at stop and shop, finder's keepers, dunkin donuts, tj maxx, dollar store, and subway. but anywho on june 3rd (1st according to kari)the pants come out and i so totally have to see it (fun times with kari and gabrielle) i have to get through the second book-- so far it is just DRAGGING!! you guys have like no idea. but cesta la vie. delage's class has been killing me and i somehow managed to recieve an 86 on my progress report but it is going to go down a little due to a perfect flippin' paper and minus 17 points for grammer and punctation AFTER SHE CORRECTED IT! saturday was a fun day-- i got to paint a bus for the demolition derby and hang off the top drawing squares. I LOVE FBLA-- there is a feild trip this wednsday but i figured i could live without going to see the norwich navagators play. plus delage and auclair keep commenting on how frequent i am out of school. it is not my problem...blame the tooth. LOL which by they way is better and i can play french horn YUPIEE! six flags is really and i so hope it is a nice day because i need to work on my tan. and than this week i am starting to run again because i bought a pair of new beautiful express pants and they don't fit. it is really sad because i love them and didn't try them on!! i would return them but all i need is to lose another 15 pound which is easy NO CARBS. just meat cheese and veggi's (AND COFFEE) but i think i am going to go now and try to work a little bit more on my research paper.